That picture of how things are supposed to be has been the cause of a lot of disappointments in my life...a lot. I've hated those crushing disappointments and hated myself for allowing them to take me down. I think it's especially hard at the holidays when you are hosting and wanting to create magic for everyone. The fact is that things aren't always magical, but if you allow things to just flow and be how they are, you are much more likely to allow yourself to see the magic that is there.
I loved our Christmas this year, and trust me, things did not live up to the picture in my head (flu for all, 105 fever on Christmas Day for EJ, everyone sick on faux Christmas, burning all the garlic bread, and much more). But I think for the first time ever, I went in without expecting the picture in my head to come true, and what resulted might have been even better.